I Shot My Dick Off In 'Nam
Having fully functioning, fully intact genitals is something most of us take for granted. But some people, like Jim, are not so lucky. Jim accidentally shot off most of his penis while serving as a soldier in Vietnam. He was just 18 at the time, and has since struggled with his sexual identity as he is unable to have penetrative sex. I talked to Jim – now 56 and living in Orlando – about how his fluke penectomy has transformed him into a sex freak, in more ways than one.
VICE: Hey Jim. So how exactly did the accident happen?
Jim: It all happened outside of Quang Tri, Vietnam. I was a Private in the infantry. My penis was shot off by an accidental discharge of my pistol, which was in the waistband of my pants. I would love to say I jumped on a grenade and lost my penis in some heroic fashion, but it was a stupid mistake and that’s the long and short of it – no pun intended. I have the length of my penis from the tip of my stump to my prostate. I have both my testicles and am still officially a man. I have the same fantasies and desires many other men have.
Can you still get an erection?
Yes, my stump is about one inch when aroused. I can pee and cum from my stump.
How do you masturbate?
I have some sensation in the tip of my stump, so rubbing that area works, and testicle and prostate massage work well for me also.
Were you a virgin before the accident?
No, thank goodness. I had sex with several girls and had a steady girlfriend in the States and in Vietnam also.
Have you dated since the accident?
I’ve had occasional girlfriends. I don't believe any of them loved me, but a couple did seem to be very aroused and obviously orgasmed as I performed oral sex on them. I never married for obvious reasons. I’ve had most of my sex with prostitutes. I have two who regularly cater to my needs.
Have you met people who are specifically turned on by the fact that you lost most of your penis?
Not really. Most just wanted to say they "fucked" a cockless man, or were curious to see what I could do.
What are you into sexually?
Receiving oral sex to my penis stump, prostate stimulation, dominant women, being humiliated and degraded by women, and ball stretching – just to name a few.
What is your ultimate fantasy?
I would like to be bound by a woman as she made fun of my stump, teased me sexually and threatened to castrate me. I know it sounds weird, but most people’s greatest fear is their most powerful sexual fantasy. I have read of many women who enjoy the rape fantasy but would never want to actually be raped. The loss of my testicles would completely destroy me as a man. I do not want to lose them but the fantasy is strong. I would love for a woman to taunt me and have sex with another man and make me watch.
Do you think you would have been into things like humiliation and degradation if the accident didn’t happen, or do you think your desires are symptoms of your disability?
I believe my penectomy has affected my sexual desires, yes. I did not have humiliation fantasies prior to the accident. My desire for domination started shortly after returning from Vietnam and while I was struggling with my sexuality – a struggle that has been continuous since the loss of my penis. Fantasy is a mind game, and it is true that the mind in the "biggest" sex organ.
What's the most extreme sexual situation you've ever been in?
I was involved with a male/female couple as a threesome. It was awesome. I met them at an apartment complex I was living in. During the threesome they humiliated me similar to the ways I mentioned before. I performed oral sex on the woman, and she did on me while she was being fucked by her boyfriend. I licked her boyfriend’s cock as he had sex with her. A man will do wild things for sex.
I also had an encounter with two prostitutes where one used a dildo in me as the other was sucking my stump and testicles.
Are you attracted to men at all?
Not unless it’s part of sex with a woman where she orders me to perform on a man. This excites me as part of the humiliation fetish. But to just have sex with a man alone, no.
There must be a BDSM scene in Orlando that you can take part in?
None that I have engaged in yet.
Have you suffered much ridicule because of your disability?
I guess I’m lucky that it’s not something you can see unless I’m naked, so thankfully no. But I was kicked off my Yahoo account because of pictures I uploaded of my severed penis stump, and I had to take some photos off of a fetish site I’m part of because one person was threatening to have my account deleted. Some say they are disgusted by pictures of my stump.
And what do you say to the haters?
I say I have seen pictures on the net of some disgusting complete dicks, so fuck them.