1986
Wilson Jones Company This is my litte diary
Whoever read this I hope your eyes fall out Girls I always wanted to have sex with and did
-Tijuana Ervin
-Theresa Simons
-Delores Mallard
-Shawnette Cottle
-Dawn Awer Wednesday January 1
Last night me, Ice, Wimp went over the city, tried to get in Bentleys. Messed with some girls. Wimp was scared. I throw-up on the train 3 times. Saturday January 4
The first day I got hired at Shop-rite. Degin Zalaski hired me and about a month later they fired him. Friday February 7
Today is my 34th day working at Shop-Rite. My raise is now $3.60 insteaded of $3.35. Now I should be pretty straight. Dean said if I didn’t get my raise today he would give the number to the union guy Mike D. Martino. Friday February 14
I came to Theresa’s homeroom & gave her her pink heart. She liked it. She brought me a box, heart, and a card. We was going to go to the movies but my money did not run right. So we canceled it. I ordered her 2 roses to her homeroom. I got a pink stuff animal, 3 roses, 5 boxes of candy and a card. Thursday February 20
1-time
Today about 3:30 about school Shay told me to come to her house. Then we got-in-a-little-something. I never known she can rock. She said the only time Wiz come around is when he want something. She fell for it for 6 months. She said I hurt her legs but I had nothing to say for the rest of that. Saturday February 22
I went around Theresa’s house and we had sex that day then I got to work at about 3:50 when I got there. I work very hard. Not much to say today. I always try to use rubber or some kind of protection. I don’t want her to get caught out. I think & feel that I upset my parents because they always looked up to me, now I upset them. I feel hurt and shame. Tuesday February 25
I was talking to Shay about tomorrow & everything is alright. Pop talked to me till about 2:00 about Delorese. She trying to put me in a hole that’s not me. Everyone said that’s someone named Rudell did it. I don’t know I like Shawnette but I like Theresa more. Shay is OK but Theresa buys me things & care for me. I don’t want to lose her. I couldn’t hardly sleep last night. Pops is the only one standing by my side, but Mom is upset. Wednesday February 26
Pop’s Birthday
2-time Shay
Happy Birthday Pop. We got out of school 1/2 hour early. So I went to Shay house. We had sex 4 time but she’s alright. She said she wasn’t pregnant by Wiz. She just did that to speak to me. She has a very nice house. She has a dog name Terry. We went to picker her brother Mike up from school. He’s about 5-6 years old. I was waiting for Eddie but he was sweating Bazz for his tab. So the phone rung it was Shay. We talked & I walked home. Me and Pop has to see the lawyer tomorrow at 4:00. Thursday February 27
Nothing exciting happen today. I went to the lawyer office & I got a lady. Office is $100.00 then $250 for every hour or 2. But they suppose take a blood-test. I’ll be glad because she can’t be shocked. Everybody in school know I go with Theresa & Shay at the same time. Friday February 28
Marvae just came around the school with her moms. Went to her house. She’s pregnant. I think it’s mine so they are not blowing it out of order. I told Pop. He was calm, now it’s just Mom. I hope she just don’t get mad or upset. But Marvae is nice. Her parents said she don’t want me to pay anything, just try to help if I can. They don’t if I even have a job. I suppose to call tomorrow so I’ll see what’s wrong. Later.
P.S. I’m still scared. Saturday March 1
I was suppose to got to Marvae house but I was busy. I found a case of Velament Breath Savers. Work was O.K. Shay way down there she went to the movies. She thinks I work but I don’t. This week is my week for 3 days. I hope Eddie punch my card. I still scared about court. Today was busy at work. All shopping carts were out. Wimp started cracking on Eddie. Eddie hit him. Sunday March 2
Tomorrow is the court. I looked at all the angels & that court is going to tape me up. I think I want to pleeb-bargan, not cause I, not guilty, cause if I say no & we take the blood test & I’m it, I’m in trouble plus it’s too much. Pop told me don’t have any fear but I can’t help it. I’m so scared I don’t have any fear but I can’t help it. I’m so scared I don’t know what to do. Theresa was here then she left at 6:25pm. Now I realized that people don’t actually care about me they’re just associates that’s all. No work Sun. Mon. Tue. Wed. 3 days this week. Monday March 3
We went there & her sister didn’t come early so we have to take blood test. She dropped her head when they asked her was I the father. Theresa came here & we talked till I took her home. She’s alright, it’s just sometimes she acts funny. Not really much to say. I didn’t got to school. I had the casual look on. It was kinda fresh. Tuesday March 4
I had to got to Uncle Rufus house to get Pop’s mail & brown bag. I’m going to write Shawn a letter. I want to get her tomorrow. Darin went to work, & tomorrow is Payday. Wednesday March 5
Payday
Today Theresa came around here. Me, Pop & Ice went to get a bed for Iris and Pip. Tammy (the girl downstairs) was behind me & she kept pulling my pants, so I felt her chest & butt & almost kissed her & she laugh. Shawnette came down the job with her aunt Bobbie. We talked & tomorrow we suppose to get into something. That’s what she says. Today at work was fast until about 6:00 pm then it was slow. I didn’t know Shawnette has her period 3 days only a month & Theresa’s is 5 days. That’s strange. I talk to Shawn’s aunt & she’s alright. -Ocee Monday March 10
After school I went to Shay’s house & we got into a little something. I wanted her to have my baby but she wanted it also, but we decided not to. So we are alright. She want me to stay out Thursday. I made her moan, groan. That makes me feel good. But it took me a long time to bust-a-nut. That’s good. I was talking to Val & I supposed to take her to Ice’s house to get paid. Tuesday March 11
Shay found out today that I had a baby but I denied it. She want me to come to her house. I bust a nut, I wanted to again but she had to pick up her brother. We talked some more so mostly everything is alright. Tarsha want me to come around her house but I can’t jump everytime a girl wants me. Shay shocked me, she said, “Ocee I want you.” I didn’t pause. I suppose to went to Theresa’s house but I had to go to my uncle house for Pop. Tomorrow I have to take a blood test for court. Wednesday March 12
I took a blood test, won’t know intil about a month. I seen Missy, I talked to her. Then I seen my ex Lisa Simmons. She said she’s coming to my job Friday about 3:30-4:00. Shay came to my job & asked me do I go with Theresa. I suppose to stay out with her tomorrow but I can’t seem to reach her. I only made $60.87, Pop took $50.00. Now I’m broke. Thursday March 13
Today is me and Theresa’s anniversary but we almost broke-up. She likes to get in he-say-she-say. That’s going to break us up. But I love her tho. Mrs. Kimble almost ratted me out but she said they don’t have no paper on me. Mom & Pop bought a new table, lamps, polestick, sneakers, etc. This weekend I suppose to spend with Theresa. Sunday March 16
Nothing special. Shay wanted me to come up but I didn’t. Lisa Simmons my ex came down. I walked her to the park and back to work. Mizike and Harold had a fight. I lost my keys but they was at my house on my bed when I got home. My father got on my case today. He said I haven’t made no accomplishments. I feel like a complete failure. I want to almost kill myself. It’s not hard I just wait till I have chemistry on Thursday. Transcribed by KID AMERICA