so sad today
Anxiety Or It Didn’t Happen
Sometimes I revisit the spots where I've had my worst panic attacks. I recently went back to the California desert, Palm Springs, the scene of my last major existential dissolve.
After Years of Therapy I've Discovered a Few Tricks for Dealing with My Panic Attacks
I stayed in the psychodynamic therapy game for far too long largely because I was afraid of "breaking up" with therapists.
Why Are People At Festivals So Happy? A So Sad Today Investigation
I went to the FYF Festival in Los Angeles to see if concertgoers are as happy and beautiful as they look on blogs, Instagram and in ads.
Nothing Bad Happened Except My Mind
There is a voice in my head that tells me I am constantly on the verge of a catastrophe. Mysteriously, over the last few weeks a new voice has emerged and it's telling the first one to shut the fuck up.
Better Living Through Meaninglessness
I've come to realise that my anxiety is more comfortable when I am involved in a contained drama, like a bad haircut.
The Less I Know the More I Want You
It probably says bad things about my capacity for intimacy that the people I have most desired are those I never got to know.
I'm a Bad Bitch with Shame and Anxiety, OK?
I decided to delve into my shame and anxiety with writer Safy-Hallan Farah, and also ask her some questions about her own shame and anxiety.
Started from the Psych Meds, Now I’m Fucked
The first week I stopped taking Effexor I spun out into an anxiety hole so deep that it felt less like anxiety and more like I was in a battle with actual demons.
The Kind of Porn That Texts You After
I tracked down the star of one of my favorite pornos to ask her about emotional attachment, vulnerability, and what love even is.
Never Getting Over You Is Going OK
I'm something of a getting-over-the-fantasy-of-people athlete.
Roses Are Red, My Psychiatrist Upped My Meds
It seems like all the cool mentally ill people are on Wellbutrin. OK, maybe not cool, but like, my mentally ill friends.
Keep Your Friends Close but Your Anxiety Closer
It's weird to hear someone express sympathy for mental illness in the way they might for a physical illness. Why is that?