Murray at Trinity. Image: Steven St. John
Image: Steven St. John
To some extent, Murray represents the passing of a generation of scientists and thinkers who knew full well the weight of the bomb; to me, his passing signifies in part the loss of that moral gravity, that finely tuned relationship to the weapon. It's easy to forget how close we came, on multiple occasions, to nuclear annihilation; if Stanislav Petrov, who also died last week, hadn't ignored a glitch in his software, he might have launched the Soviet arsenal—and nuclear holocaust. As those heroes pass on, a gap grows, and we're left with figures like Trump and Kim who have no moral connection to the possibility of the bomb—a truly terrifying prospect."I always felt I got my moral compass from my dad," Sharon Peshkin, Murray's daughter, wrote to me. "He knew what was right and acted on it."After the Manhattan Project, Murray devoted his life to science, both in research and education; as a professor at Northwestern University, and eventually, the Acting Director of the Physics Division at Argonne National Laboratory. He stayed active in research until the end—doing physics quite literally from his hospital bed."The last thing I did with dad was help him route his VPN connection thru the hospital's wifi, so that he could get to his neutron modeling programs at Argonne National Lab," Michael wrote me. "His kids and grandkids were with him a lot in what turned out to be his last days, and my mom was by his side as always," he also wrote. "He lived a long happy and fulfilling life, and it ended on the terms he wanted."Rest in peace, Murray.But there's no satisfying answer, because how could there be. An exuberant teenager, asked to join a top secret science project, pulling on the umbilical of whatever's next, groping down the road, we've all been there—but ours didn't end in Hiroshima.
Despite the fact that joining the Manhattan Project launched his career, despite his deep love of physics and having gotten to know some of its greatest minds, the weight of the bomb is such that he would give it all up to have never abetted its destruction. "If you ask me now, just given the chance to replay history?" he says, "and I should not be involved in that, which would I prefer? I think I would prefer not."