I’ve seen a lot of talented musicians go through the same thing and I feel very sorry, sad, and disappointed for them. Like me, many of them thought that going through the idol group system was the only way to pursue their passion.I find myself disappointed in the system because there are so many people who do not fit the “dancing-singing idol” genre of K-pop but are forced into that mould. After inducting artists into this system, labels blow them up as big as they can for more revenue, popularity, and fame, further perpetuating that this is the only method for success, instead of just allowing them to be the artist that they want to be.There is a hierarchy, with the label at the top, and the artist in a position where they just have to take direction. When I was at big labels, I felt like my music wasn’t good enough and that I wasn’t good enough, as an artist and as myself. I wish there had been someone there to tell me that I was enough and support who I was as an artist.K-pop idol groups bring a lot of happiness to so many people but producing all artists to fit under this umbrella is not right. I want to see more diversity in our industry that has spent so much time erasing people's identities and putting them in a uniformed glossy package to fit what they think the masses want to consume.
At a certain point, I started to make a lot of money and people started recognising me, but because I was not being myself, the more money that came in, the lower my self-esteem got. Nothing I was doing was bringing me joy and the “success” I had tried so hard to achieve came to mean nothing.