What I Want to Tell You About Heroin
Getting off heroin is one thing, facing the consequences and damage of the years you spent on drugs is another.
You’re too fragile. Intimacy is a trigger. It’s simply switching addictions from a drug to a person. So when you do meet someone, how do you know your feelings won’t doom you both?
One of the hardest lessons around being sober is learning to appreciate the ordinary, the mundane, the normal.
“My identity had become so entwined with heroin that I had normalised it. It was only occasionally, in a moment of clarity, that I realised just how abnormal being a heroin addict was.”
“I wanted a child, but logic told me I must terminate. What if I could not stay off drugs?”
Substance abuse is at odds with what's expected of women. But here I am, a woman in rehab, facing how addiction challenges everything that's ever been expected of me.
“I am tired of the putrid stench of sweat and the overwhelming compulsion to use, use, use because if I don’t, I will die.”