SZA sat in the audience of the 2018 Grammys as the most nominated woman in any genre for her debut album Ctrl. The notion that she would walk away empty handed after five nominations and a platinum, critically-acclaimed album seemed unlikely, and yet she did. Since then, SZA has been relatively quiet on her thoughts on the snub, but in an interview with GQ, the TDE singer gets candid about how she felt and what's next.
She explains why she remained quiet in the days following the Grammys.
I just didn’t know how to take it. I didn’t say anything, I didn’t post, because I’ve never had to deal with anything I really believed in wholeheartedly, or invested in, and went through something that publicly before. I wanted to be honest as fuck, and if today I’m just mad as hell, I don’t want to say something that reflects me being mad as hell. But I definitely feel blessed now. I also don’t feel compelled to explain myself.
The Ctrl singer also set the record straight on her feelings about Alessia Cara winning Best New Artist.
If anything, I feel compelled to express that I really, really fuck with Alessia Cara. She’s beautiful as fuck, her voice is like water, it’s like milk, I think it’s gorgeous. It has so much dimension, and she deserves every accolade that she gets.
But, most importantly, the loss was a reality check reaffirming why she began to make music in the first place.
We’re changing little girls’ lives across the world, and we didn’t even know what we were doing when we started. This is something much bigger than me and a fucking trophy. I’m appreciative of the opportunity.
Her loss, paired with the lack of recognition of women at the Grammys, opened up conversations about racial and gender biases along the award show's infrastructure. But, it seems as though SZA has worked through her feelings enough to move on to her next project. "I didn’t make my album with the Grammys in mind, and I’m definitely not gonna make my second one with the Grammys in mind," she says. Read the rest of the interview at GQ.
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