Illustrations by Alex Jenkins
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"Chris" and "Anne"
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Anne: An observation I made recently about my sex life is that every person I've ever had sex with—the first time I had sex with them, I was drunk. Chris was the only person who it wasn't that way with. Chris and I fooled around while I was wasted or passed out, but Chris was the one who was like, "I'm not comfortable yet!" So I was the one pursuing sex hardcore, especially when I was drunk.Chris: That's why I felt so shy. When I used to drink, it was much easier for me to hit on girls and be sexual. But being sober, I felt like shy and awkward. She would just fucking grab me. She's very aggressive. And I was just like, "Whoa!"Anne: For me, drinking was an easier way for me to have sex with people. I didn't realize that until I got sober. Now that I have sober sex, I look back and realize that was me being insecure with my body and afraid and nervous and dealing with it by drinking.Chris: Socially, there were issues. I was embarrassed by her behavior. She thought she was just having a good time. Like, "Fuck the world! I'm having fun! I'm free!" That quickly got old. I was very embarrassed by her behavior, and I thought people would judge me because I was sober, and I was with a bar-drunk person. I would go out to bars with her, and we would kiss, and I would smell the alcohol on her breath, and it would really stress me out because of my prior drinking problem."I would smell the alcohol on her breath, and it would really stress me out because of my prior drinking problem."
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"Melissa" and "Alex"
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