so sad today vice
If I’m Not the Worst, What Am I?
After publishing a book that wasn't a complete failure, I've been having some very disturbing thoughts. What if I don't totally suck? What if I'm not the worst person on the planet? What if I do, God forbid, deserve happiness?
I Survived a Panic Attack and All I Got Was General Anxiety
This week, my new therapist and I did some detective work and stumbled upon something that in 15 years of panic attacks I had never discovered before.
One Girl, Six Shrinks
I always start therapy with the hope of accomplishing a particular goal, but is there ever really an end? I could do a different kind of work with a different kind of therapist every day and there would probably never be a terminus.
Elegy for a Stranger
The only thing I know about this man is that he lived across the street from me, three houses down, on the second floor of a two-story house, and that he killed himself last Sunday.
Extremely Conscious and Incredibly Scared of It
Sometimes I wonder if my conditions, which fluctuate on a continuum from the height of terror to a vague sense of unease, could instead be called seeing too much, feeling too much, or thinking too much.
After Years of Therapy I've Discovered a Few Tricks for Dealing with My Panic Attacks
I stayed in the psychodynamic therapy game for far too long largely because I was afraid of "breaking up" with therapists.