Annons
Annons
Another macrophile, who asked that I not use his name, told me, "I like to feel insignificant. I like the idea of a woman so powerful she could crush me and not realize. Being small makes that real."Even though it's all fantasy—as in, this dude is never going to meet a 150 metres tall woman—he said the internet allows him to indulge.I reached out to a friend of mine who used to be a dominatrix in New York. She explained to me that most macrophiles she knows are "powerful guys—lawyers, Wall Street dudes. It's because their jobs are all about power and control, so when they want an escape, they want to feel the complete opposite of that." She concluded that sometimes we sexualize our personal pain, trauma, and frustrations in order to feel in control of them.And I get that. I've always had issues with my self-esteem. I once sexted a guy, and his response was "you have a unique face," as if a Picasso painting had just sexted him. My poor self-image led me to that string of bad relationships where I tried to shrink away. Could sexualizing those insecurities put me back in control of them?Sometimes we sexualize our personal pain, trauma, and frustrations in order to feel in control of them.
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