So Sad Today
Talking Death and Existential Anxiety with an ICU Nurse
I asked my friend Ernesto, who works as an ICU nurse, some questions about existential anxiety, fear of death, and how surrounding oneself with the dying can affect one's brain.
If I’m Not the Worst, What Am I?
After publishing a book that wasn't a complete failure, I've been having some very disturbing thoughts. What if I don't totally suck? What if I'm not the worst person on the planet? What if I do, God forbid, deserve happiness?
Fuck Music, Let’s Talk About Feelings: An Interview with Best Coast's Bethany Cosentino
Underneath the infinity pool and the pink and purple sky of Bethany Cosentino's music is a complicated brain chemistry, dichotomous feelings, and a hamster wheel of a mind.
I Survived a Panic Attack and All I Got Was General Anxiety
This week, my new therapist and I did some detective work and stumbled upon something that in 15 years of panic attacks I had never discovered before.
One Girl, Six Shrinks
I always start therapy with the hope of accomplishing a particular goal, but is there ever really an end? I could do a different kind of work with a different kind of therapist every day and there would probably never be a terminus.
Crying Alone on the Toilet Makes Me Feel Whole: Advice from So Sad Today
So Sad Today answers your questions about friends, crying your ass off, and telling that special someone how you really feel.
Elegy for a Stranger
The only thing I know about this man is that he lived across the street from me, three houses down, on the second floor of a two-story house, and that he killed himself last Sunday.
The Pube in the Nothingness
I got in bed with on- and off-screen porn star couple Small Hands and Joanna Angel to get their perspectives on emotional attachment, monogamy, fantasy vs. reality, and, of course, anal.
Extremely Conscious and Incredibly Scared of It
Sometimes I wonder if my conditions, which fluctuate on a continuum from the height of terror to a vague sense of unease, could instead be called seeing too much, feeling too much, or thinking too much.
Anxiety Or It Didn’t Happen
Sometimes I revisit the spots where I've had my worst panic attacks. I recently went back to the California desert, Palm Springs, the scene of my last major existential dissolve.