WHAT WE DO IS SECRET

There’s a new Germs movie called What We Do Is Secret and we asked Lesley Arfin to preview it: In 2001 I got obsessed with the Germs. This was me, age 23, and I was 1 month sober. I wanted to drink and get wasted like Darby but I couldn’t, so instead I did the next best idiotic thing, which was to get a Germs tattoo. I must admit, I felt super cool and punk and while the rest of the world was probably rolling their eyes at me, I wore my blue Germs circle with pride. When I wanted to impress people, I made sure my upper arm was available for viewing. About a month after that, I started drinking again, and a week later I was right back where I left off. Today, sober again, I’ve stopped wanting to live my life like someone else, someone who I thought lived better than me, yet the tattoo still remains as blue as ever. I watched the dumb trailer for the Germs movie… (Watch trailer after the jump)

I watched the dumb trailer for the Germs movie and rolled my eyes and dismissed it quickly. However, I realize that it’s not the movie I’m mad at, but myself. It was like a mirror held up to my past, begging me to see the insecurities I left behind. And then I realized that actually makes me more like Darby Crash then I thought. Darby, who was gay and worshiped Bowie, was also full of insecurity, hate, shame, and the dream of wanting to be someone different. But who knows if the movie bothers to get this. To be honest, I have low expectations and I don’t really care. Rather than act like a total fucking purist geek loser and get mad at Hollywood for making a movie about something some of us once held so dear, I’ll either see it, or won’t, and not make a big deal either way. It’s obvious that Hollywood thinks everything dark, awesome, and unexplainable is fascinating so instead of hating on it, let’s just live it and move on. It takes a lot more balls to not give a shit, right?